So another day passes..  I keep listening to the news and see an all time high in unemployment rates and find myself as one of those numbers.  Although this fact, I have been busy.  I had an awesome opportunity to produce, direct and edit a music video for an up and coming artist.  I’m now in the editing phase and the rough cut is done.  I hope to get some good notes back and more forward in the visual effects of the video.  Yeah Fun! 

I really learned a lot about working with people on this project and I am also learning a lot about myself as the times passes that I do not have a full-time job.  Taking on a lot of responsibility is a big job and I seem to try to do everything and maybe that may not be the right thing for me in the future.  I am still pondering the question but I do have the drive and desire to succeed. 

I am also really missing working in my field of motion capture and keep looking for a job to keep me on that path.  I’ve had great opportunities in the past, but now I need to keep my strength up and use this to manifest a job in the near future. 

So what did I do and what am I good at? 

I worked as a motion tracker and did other tasks of sorts in the motion capture field.  I am competent of my work and know I can do a great job if given the opportunity.  That is pretty much the bottom line.  At this time, it doesn’t seem to be a good choice to make a change in my field, but to rather follow the path of where I was going.  I really would love to work in the capacity of a production coordinator on a motion capture film, but I need to have some more proven experience, or perhaps someone who will believe in me.  I loved working at the last job I was at more than anything, but really regret that I never had an opportunity to do the job I was initially hired for and yes that really bums me out, but I met some awesome people along the way.  I wonder if this was Karma or just my own doing?

In another hand there is the opportunity for me to start my own small production company in the Orange County area and provide video and web assistance to small business owners, but this too is a very hard thing to do.  I have to develop a business plan for starters and on top of that, I need to market myself and learn how much to really charge for my services and how to write up contracts that are specific.  Without a mentor in the production field, I feel I am having a tough time, but tough times are needed in order for people to learn lessons about their own lives and the lives of others.  That goodness that I have the OCIWE to help me through the necessary phases.

On another hand, I really want to work more on my social skills and become a better entrepreneur and employee.  People can really make judgement calls based on petty things and I am really looking to work with a group of people who are supportive and dedicated.  Pretty much sometimes I feel like an outsider and need to have the confidence to make it through the day.  Confidence is key to success.

I would also like to say that I am really grateful for having good friends and family in my life. My friend Manny and boyfriend Corey have been really supportive in my time of need, as well as my mother and father.  I have been feeling a little anxious lately but really think that is because I am not working.  I went to the Crystal Cathedral today with my friend to pray.  I pretty much asked God for a sign of some sorts to provide me security of which is the right path in my life and what I need to do to stay on the path.  As I heard a guru once say “There are many paths you can take, but if you take the wrong one, you have to go back and travel even more to reach your eventual destination.”  Whether or not that may be true, I have to really keep my intuitive sense open and be ready for any challenges that may face ahead in the future.  Like I said I am grateful to have others help me in my life, but I would rather be independent and secure with myself.

So no matter where you may be these days, be thankful and gracious and look towards a better future and utilize the present as much as you can.  The present is all we have, we can’t change the past and no one really knows what’s in store for us in the future.

Jobs, Jobs, and Jobs??? Where are they?  I think to myself, have I been looking hard enough?  What is going to happen to me and was my education really all worth what it was, or still is? 

So as for the job front, I guess the best thing to do everyday is to keep looking, most importantly and try not to lose hope in finding something.  Think of a pond and there are a lot of rocks in it. As a metaphor some rocks will be craigslist, others will be Monster.com, others will be all the major web sites to look for industry specific work.  There are usually the larger rocks in the pond or better yet, even a little stream, although it is a stream is seems to be trickling slowly.  Now there are many rocks in the stream but they are so small that you pass them up as you ride the stream, or better yet you find yourself not even thinking of them cause they are to small.

Most business at this time do not advertise that they are hiring or potentially may be hiring.  The best thing that you can do, is to find these companies.  Go figure, these companies also depend on others to finace their paychecks or are listed in magazine articles.  The best place to look for business is to look in a directory like the yellow pages.  Go through the book and look up all the services that the company may offer that you might want to work at.  Go to special industry directories and locate the companies phone number and website information. 

Next, go to the website and look it over.  If you like what you see, you can either submit a resume over the Internet or even better yet call the company and inquire if they are hiring.  Don’t be shy get a contact name and email address.  Make sure you have a resume to send off immediately in order to remain in the potential employers mind. 

Some suggestions if you have a website, I suggest getting a free program called Google Analytics.  This program will track who is visiting your website to see if the calls you made and emails that you sent paid off.  It also gives you other valuable information.  A website, helps as a way for an employer to become better acquainted with you quickly. 

So let’s go back to the pond/stream example.  If you turn over many stones/pebbles you are bound to find something.  Just keep up your will power and determination.  Be willing to take a job, if it is even not the job you want at this time.  We are in an employers market and they now can pick and choose which types of fish they want and they can be picking cause there are so many fish to choose from. 

A couple weeks ago, I had a great meeting with an employment coach online, who looked at my resume and offered advice free of charge.  These opportunities are out there, you just have to search and find them. 

Even though times may seem tough, if there is a will there is a way.  Remember the dinosaurs from Jurassic Park!

So I am up early again.  I pretty much fell asleep yesterday around 7:45pm.  Wow I am so boring.  But I could barely keep my eyes open I was so tired.  So I saw a movie yesterday and the day before and I am planning to do some reviews as part of a new section of this blog and possibly for my live stream and youtube.  I really need to develop my brand name in a sense and create more content.  I had previously worked on a video that I had made, but have not uploaded it to youtube yet, and I do need to finish my edit for the New Balance video as well.  Just releasing some things from the back corners of my mind.  So I read an interesting article yesterday about a family receiving money because of a blog.  I thought it was great,  I’m wondering how I can turn that around so that I can be a student in need of finishing her film.  As everyday passes I seem to go more and more insane.  I pretty much want a job, but know that I probably won’t find one till after the new year. 

I went out with my dad yesterday and we watched a movie and went out to eat.  He is very nice and he loves me a lot, which is awesome.  He is my dad!  But we were talking about how this Christmas wasn’t that good.  He said to me maybe next year will be better and I said to him, “that’s what you said last year.”  We both laughed and the then our laughs became silent.  Ahh. 

Things will pick up soon.  I need to continue working on the music video and keep trucking on that end.  Also I need to send out more resumes.  I really hate looking for a job, maybe someday, people will be calling me up for work and I won’t have a problem having to look, but have the opportunity to turn things down.  How lucky that would be.

So late Merry Christmas everyone and I wish everyone a Happy New Year.  Maybe next year will be better!

Ahh, yes I know it has been a while but,  I’m not much of a writer and yeah and I am working on that thing you call ummm discipline.  So what has been going on.  Personally I have been trying to network and meet new people who share a similar vision as myself.  I’ve pretty much seem to have given up or more as gotten over trying to prove anything to anyone.  I am who I am and so what… take it or leave it is my new mentality.  I have a desire to be a leader and creator.  Being caught up in a sense to kiss ass or be a certain way around someone with some clout seems to not be that appealing to me unless the fact could be that I could use their help or they have touched me in a way that deems my utmost respect.

Tonight I had the opportunity to meet some other like minded individuals and I’m excited as to what could lie ahead for us.  If we stick to the plan and be watchers over each other, then I think we will have some potential for success.  No matter what the success may be, money, fame, creative, or just the fact that a group of people can get together and accomplish goals and a desire, which may be the biggest accomplishment of all.  If we fail then we fail, at least we tried.  And trying is what is most important because it helps us to learn what does and does not work. 

The people I’ve met so far seem to want to be on the right track and I am confident that we can come up with something that will prove valuable besides just the experience.

Ponder the thought… value does not always mean money…

Now off to search for two more members of the group, eventually we will find them.

So I pretty much posted my ad on Craigslist and keep getting my add flagged.  What a pity, I’m trying to actually do something good and give back and people want to flag me like crazy.  Are people against Christmas or they really don’t want to admit, that there are people out there that want to network and have some enjoyment out of doing it. 

I’m pretty sure that it can take a lot out of someone to give their time, but when your having fun and it’s productive, I think that is a positive thing.  Over and over again, I see more job loss out there, in the newspaper, on the television, driving by the local stores that are going out of business and hearing more and more that people are losing their jobs left and right.  Just announced Bank of America might be cutting 35,000 jobs. That is not a small number and it’s bound to get only worse and not better. 

I wonder, if the people who have jobs even wonder about losing theirs of perhaps wonder what others are doing that don’t have a job.  I hope that they are thankful and not taking their jobs for granted at this time.  What are people really to do when they lose their job, their house or home and all their things; they’re left to fend out on their own.  Some are homeless and others move in with their friends or family to help them through these hard time. 

I myself and trying to keep my head up and live the life I want to lead as well as help others in life.  I am networking and making possible contacts for future teams and work.  No matter what you may think, whether you look down on someone or not, you have to know that you yourself are happy and that is what really matters.

The things you have own you.