On a lighter side, I’m finishing up with my Project Management Class tonight.
So it’s around 5am this morning and my birthday is Thursday. Wow I’m so excited. Well not really. I pretty much felt like I did last year and around this time and now I have less of a desire to keep moving forward. Maybe I could just be in a rut or perhaps not, but I’m scared and not willing to try anymore to look for work. Maybe I should seek some counseling or better yet just give up all together. I’ve tried to stay positive, but I realize that I am who I am and nothing can change that. No matter how hard I try or try to convince myself that things will work out in the end, I am starting to believe that the path that I have chosen is not in my destiny and I feel like a wandering soul. I’ve always wanted to identify with something greater or a group/job and people whom share similar values, but no matter how hard I try, no one seems to want me. It’s like I’m reliving my youth and I see the same patterns reoccurring.